back at centrelink to sort out my health care card and i can't say i've missed this at all

caring about animal welfare is all well and good but i will never understand people who care more about animal rights than about the civil rights issues of actual human beings.

so i just scolded myself out of hiccups using riley's strategy of "just realising that it's pointless"

THIS IS TOO MUCH POWER FOR ONE PERSON

i have a cat on my leg this is the best thing ever

I hate how I only come onto this blog when I have negativity to post

getting this semester's result has really shown me how far my standards have dropped and it sickens me

i used to be so good at school, all the effort i put into everything and the constant hd's i took for granted

and now i'm sitting on a credit average and i'm realising that the whole identity of 'smart' was only in comparison

i used to devine myself by my smartness and kindness and now i'm around so many smart people that the former doesnt matter, and the lattr, well. i'd hardly call myself a kind person anymore.

just. i feel like i'm falling behind. and i know i should be inspired by all the intelligence but i just feel inferior, like i'll never measure up. i'll never again reach the standards i used to have. i feel behind and i feel like i'll only get further behind and then i'll just be nowhere.

can i please remove my uterus in its entirety i have no desired use for it ever

ahahahahahahaha

guess whose youth allowance has been suspended again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11!!!!!1

being an adult is fun because you get to impulse buy all of the sick loot

like loom bands

and glow in the dark stars

the shoes were the only thing we went in for and i'm very happy with them. for the first time in 6 months my shoes fit me 

ever since i spilt the one allie gave me for my 16th i've been after this exact eyeshadow and NOW I HAVE IT MY LIFE IS COMPLETE

(no i will not branch out to other eyeshadows, hiss)

and riley got a poster holder but that's not as interesting so i'm not bothering with a photo.

we couldn't find any ball pits tho?? maybe we could check toys 'r us.

 also we saw $2 waterguns at woolworths the other day and you just can't let that opportunity slide

 this is true adulthood.

considering i have very few emotional resources my exam strategy of 'have as little emotional investment as possible' is working pretty well

all i have to do is remain confident in my ability to scrape a pass at a bare minimum

voila uni stress solved

do you ever wonder if you might actually be a terrible person and you have no idea because you think you're better than that

am not sure when i will actually do it but the question is when it comes to it

 do i do yoruichi hair

or teal and purple hair

??????

almost every movie ad i see is

- white men bro movie

or

- straight white couple rom-com

my social anxiety is generally not that bad but it definitely gets a lot worse when i'm in one of my low moods and that just sparks more anxiety

i woke up from a nap a lil bit ago and i think i am suddenly feeling much better

i just want to sleep all the time

just spent two hours doing dishes holy fuck i never want to do another dish ever again

ive had this stupid flu the past few days and the only thing keeping ne going has been endless bottles of powerade

aaaah this girl in the waiting room looks like natalie dormer must not stare

why do blue jeans with red shoes look so good tho???

CAT team confirmed once again for absolutely useless trash

riley's cat likes me and his bed is very springy and hE HAS 19 DVDS OF BLEACH PLUS ALL THE MOVIES WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS RILEY SAY GOODBYE TO ALL YOUR BLEACH MERCH

but yeahhh

i'm in the middle of nowhere but it has a nice view. we passed alpacas?? and a kookaburra just casually landed on the kitchen porch (and i think this is a normal occurrence???)

allie and veronica and the entire mitchell family are absolutely amazing i have no words

holy shit stuff is actually happening

I NEVER MENTIONED THAT CHRIS THOMPSON KNOWS ME HE KNOWS MY NAME HE REMEMBERED ME

SENPAI NOTICED ME MY LIFE IS COMPLETE

I FEEL VERY SAD FOR EVERYONE WHO HAS NEVER HAD THE EXPERIENCE OF SOMEONE GENTLY BRUSHING THEIR HAIR FOR THEM IT IS ONE OF THE MOST SOOTHING THINGS I CAN THINK OF

i fucking hate my life and would really, really like to not exist.

now would be a really good time to dissociate

i'm fucking 17 i shouldn't have to deal with this shit

i need to get out

fuck the latest homestuck update was amazing though holy shit i'm gone

ah shit i've been meaning to watch anime all day but i never got around to it...

teenage boys are so annoying

holy shit i'm a hug elitist

when i say hugs i mean PROPER hugs, like tight hugs that go on for more than two seconds or something and not those obligatory things that are more of a light chest bump than anything substantial

go hard or go home okay tight hugs are the best any day. if you aren't trying to crush their ribs you aren't hugging tight enough

i recommend everyone get more hugs

hugs will greatly improve your quality of life and i have reason to believe they can help with stress and anxiety levels so make sure you're getting your recommended daily dose of hugs

nooooo

moreeeee

assignmentssssss


UNTIL NEXT YEAR YESSSSSS

I SURVIVED THE MATHS ASSIGNMENT

I WILL NEVER HAVE TO DO A MATHS ASSIGNMENT AGAIN

LIFE IS SWEET

i either stress completely or don't care at all.

also you can add 'biting' to my list of cat-like traits...

on that note, do try to avoid using mental illnesses as casual adjectives, e.g. 'i'm so depressed,' 'i'm so ocd,' etc etc. it's trivialising and pretty ignorant of what mental illness actually is

friendly reminder that depression =/= sadness

depression =/= constantly feeling  miserable every second of every day

like any mental illness it is so much more complicated than that and just because i have times where i am over the moon with happiness it doesn't change the fact that i have depression

(depression doesn't mean i've lost the ability to feel happiness, but it's made the feeling a lot more temporary.)

i don't know what to do for subjects next year though like atm the only thing that interests me is chem

but if i do two chem subjects that's more labs

i don't know. i think i have an aversion to hard work due to not believing i can cope with it

if you haven't given your hogwarts house some consideration i don't know what youre doing with your life

except cats don't have to do homework they really do get a good deal

wish i was a cat though

i would be the most affectionate cat like i'd follow you from room to room and headbutt your face and meow for your attention and get in your way when you're trying to work and demand pats and drape myself all over you at all times

...

i may already be a cat. 

why is my hair so not soft/10

must really work on this easily-sparked jealousy and insecurity/inferiority complex tho

I hate my inability to sound convincing, even about shit I am 100% certain on

I HATE MY LIFE

THERE'S NEVER MILK IN THE SCIENCE LOUNGE AS I'M WALKING IN

BUT ALWAYS AS I'M WALKING OUT

oftentimes not that vague

the vague terror you feel when thinking about your future

motivation to do anything at all is very low but i know i have to or i'll spend the rest of the week being an utter wreck

career ambitions have included doctor, classical musician, surf life guard, dentist, maths teacher, hacker, linguist, marketing psychologist, criminologist, mathematician, engineer, forensic psychologist, lecturer, some sort of position within the UN or ASIS, and researcher.

today: watermelon.

tomorrow: watermelon.

fuck this if i can't drink i'll dig my nails into my arm instead

(why did i have to cut my nails)

i cannot fucking believe this

my mum is actually comparing me to my dead father, my violently abusive serial cheating father, and basically saying at least he respected me!

i'm very short on effective non-self-destructive coping techniques

WHY DID I SKIP SO MANY LECTURES

fun fact when you take cat ears off after wearing them for a while you spend the next hour feeling like you still have them on

cat ears are really fucking hard to position i hate everything

i really lucked out finding riley though.

i hate the moment where i start questioning my own version of reality

i keep considering alcohol and it's such a bad sign

i think the only safe option is to distrust every straight boy except the ones i already know and trust (all 3 of them?). this sounds about right

why are boys so gross

i thought i was through with this after high school. for some bizarre naive reason i thought i'd seen the last of the gross sexism, blatant objectification and casual homophobia but nope. ofc not. still surrounded by guys who see women as sex objects, who take pleasure in belittling female celebrities, who usw gay as an insult (really though, really?) who don't give a single flying fuck about all the women who don't meet up to the impossible ideals.

it's sick and it makes me sick and it is so, so difficult to be around people who have such gross ideas about your whole gender. and if you say anything they'll call you crazy and overreacting, one of those Crazy Feminists. but when it's either that or absorb the toxicity, i'll take Crazy Feminist anyway.

it's okay now it's all good i'm all good i'm not becoming an alcomaholic i'm good.

no i am actually wishing i had alcohol rn it's not good it's not good at all

help farah called me a hipster

i am so close to alcoholism you don't even know.

i am such bad at this decision making thing

i am so tired

i woke up feeling vaguely wrong and it got better but talking to my mum is bringing it back again and i hppe it doesn't stick around

It's taken me this long to realise that even if you want to, you can't actually fix anyone's problems for them. You can't make them go away. You can't take them to a safe blanket fort in the clouds and keep them safe forever.

You can't solve people's problems, and you can't take them on as your own. Nobody expects you to solve their problems, and nobody expects you to drain yourself trying to help them.

Nobody expects you to put them before yourself.

It's a hard lesson for me to learn, but that makes it all the more important. You need to take care of yourself first before you can take care of anyone else, because otherwise you won't be able to take care of anyone, including yourself.

I need to remember this. I need to remember this.

today has turned out significantly better than i thought it would be and for that i am grateful.

last night i got buzzed from one glass of red wine.

yeah go ahead call me a lightweight you'd only be the 7th person in 12 hours

i'm used to being the one who's stressed out and freaking out and having emotional meltdowns so being on the other end of that is newer for me and it's really upsetting how do you guys deal with me it's so upsetting feeling helpless and wanting nothing more than to help and to fix it and to do something it sucks it sucks it sucks

my weaknesses include:

- hitsugaya toshiro
- energetic pop music
- the emoticon =wwww=
- head pats
- cats
- fluffy fanfic

i wish i had heaps and heaps of money to spend on rad presents for all the cool people in my life

NEW WOLF GANG MUSIC

NEW MARINA MUSIC

NEW SOFTENGINE MUSIC

IM SO HYPE

after i made my post on tuesday about not remembering a successful chem lab i then proceeded to have a surprisingly successful chem lab yesterday.

it's always nice when you're pessimistic and then are pleasantly surprised.

tho, i have absolutely no idea what i'm meant to do now cos i was not prepared for a yes. what do

i'm gonna put a jump cut here just cos it feels weird having it just out here on the front of my blog

Hill has left a new comment on your post "SO EXCITE": 

?????????????????? cat??????? bae??????????? 

 the latter my friend!!! :D

SO EXCITE

oh my god i just saw this picture and made an incredible high pitched squealing noise

I STILL WANT A RAGDOLL CAT SO MUCH OH MY GOD

i can't remember the last time i had a successful chemistry lab tho

(has such a thing ever happened?)

drunk messages from friends are the most hilarious things in the world holy fucking shit

there really is a huge difference in feeling upset because of shit you're personally going through, and feeling upset on behalf of someone you love and what they're going through

they feel different, but just as painful

today i looked hella cute

these guys are wonderful and i miss them

i spend a lot of time thinking just let me be h a p p y

help the bae is so fkn cute implodes and rolls into the sun

it may be physically impossible for me to be upset while baking

^_^ is such a cute emoticon what the fuck

how do i care about work and uni and doing well when everything sucks

being friends with someone younger than you and watching them grow up into a great human being os so wonderful

i want to go back to uni at least i got something done every day

this holiday i've been sleeping over 12 hours a day, going to bed at midnight and waking up at 7am and then going back to sleep till 10am and then napping throughout the day till like 6pm

and it's not pleasant at all it's just constant fatigue that i can't shake no matter how much i sleep

i am not good at thinking long-term or seeing anything as particularly urgent and you can imagine that this can cause issues

getting things done is a struggle

tfw stuff pops up on your news feed and you're like 'i don't remember ever liking this page...'

so my default comfort mechanism for when i'm feeling shitty and/or shitty stuff is happening is to go to one or more of my friends and just rant at them about everything, and sometimes it helps a lot and makes me feel completely better, and sometimes it doesn't help as much and i still end up mulling over and over in my head

but it's still better than being alone with it, you know?

like it is definitely something i'm proud of - the fact that i'm able to reach out to people and tell them what's going on and when something is happening.  that i can open up to people at all really, because it's easy to become isolated in situations like mine.

i realise i haven't gone into specifics on this blog and there are probs people reading this who don't actually know what's happening, and what's causing the situational depression & anxiety (naturally situational implies there's an outside cause) and if you're reading this then it's more likely than not that you're someone i wouldn't mind telling, so hmu if you like.

deciding whether or not to tell someone is one of the harder parts because i'm always wondering how they'll take it, and whether i really want to spill my life story out to them. also it tends to be really out of the blue? i'm good at keeping up the facade and i almost invariably get shock and 'i had no idea' and it does feel like i'm burdening them.

i'm getting better at realising that i'm not, and that the people i tell appreciate knowing and the implicit trust in me telling them, and that they'd rather know than not.

...hah, writing that just made me realise that it's not often really think i don't want them to know, because i tend to really trust the people in my life. i think that's something i like about myself too. or maybe i just have this tendency to attract really good people? either way.

i can't remember what else i wanted to cover, so i'll just end it here.

i definitely know that people care about me, and that a lot of people love me and value me and think i'm great and heck, maybe some people even admire me

it's not something i ever really doubt; my insecurity tends to stem more from wondering if i deserve it, whether i've done enough to be worthy of it, but i think i'm getting better at that too.

oh wait i never probably said my diagnosis on here? situational depression and anxiety, utterly unsurprising.

i'm looking back through old posts on my blog and what do you know

porque no los dos indeed

getting the diagnosis was actually the hugest relief to be honest; it was like this realisation of 'holy shit there's actually a cause for this and i'm not just being a lazy emo teenager'

it was like validation that there's a reason for what i'm feeling and it's an actual issue that can be dealt with and not just some personality flaw, and that was big.

detailed breakdown of my type:

be cute and nice and make me laugh and give me food

that's about it

at least half my favourite characters are evil and psychotic but adorable teenage boys that inevitably end up dead

shoutout to cath for surviving through those 3000 words of pain!! much proud :D

legitimately cannot believe i finished that essay

holy shit

go me :'D

intensely plans out how to tell bae i want to cuddle and kiss him in a nonromantic way

'no hetero'

...

that might do it, actually

shoutout to hillarman

thank for ur comments ur the coolest bean xoxo

also the scariest thing about capitalism is that it actually works exactly the way it's supposed to: it functions by marginalising a whole group of people and it relies on keeping them marginalised to continue functioning. it is VERY effective at making it impossible for that group to achieve what others believe they have 'earned' - if it were simply a matter of them ~~'working harder'!~~ capitalism would literally fall apart on its own

hillarman's a+ comment on this post

my type is 'guys who aren't interested in relationships' and it's just about as good as it sounds

protip: don't use witholding attention as a weapon against people

it's a wholly unpleasant thing to do

guess who's dreading being stuck at home for 11 days straight during the mid-semester break?!?!?!?!!!?!?!

my nails are awesome that is all

chelsea and i are going on a gap year to hawaii tonight

if you want in just meet us at the airport

is it too late to take a gap year

it really bugs me that i've never left victoria

i want to dye my hair but having black hair is such a pain like i gotta bleach it and make it super unhealthy and shit and redye often and not use straighteners

...but purple hair tho

also i drink tea now

don't question it

i want a cat

casually ventblogging because it's been a long day and i've got a lot on my mind and an essay i'm procrastinating because i am trash

when i get anxious i start digging my nails into my hands

everyone wants to believe they're middle class and doing well because our capitalist society demands it

because if you're not doing well then obviously it's your own fault

it allows the rich to feel comfortable and self satisfied with the knowledge that they deserve their lifestyle because they have earned it, while the poor aspire to an impossible ideal that surely!! surely they can reach if they only work harder!!, but this ideal is impossible, it was never going to be a fair go

because the capitalism is fundamentally flawed and has the most marginalised parts of society shoulder the blame for a system that was already broken to begin with.

things are getting really hard to handle again

my mum has picked out a name

for me to change my name to

that's nice. do i get any say in this?

i was far less stressed when i didn't actually care about putting in effort and doing well

you really still have this open

the thought of my own insignificance in such an unfathomably huge universe is actually quite comforting to me

i think it's because the idea of complete nonexistence is one i find very soothing

stressed, depressed, but well dressed.

my friend just sent me this

clearly my work is done here.

you are a terrible influence on me. you have nobody to blame but yourself. 

comes home to a boatload of abuse but at least i still look cute

i've been in a really good mood the past two weeks! i feel so light and happy and mainly calm and not like i want to die or start crying or give up on everything at all,

...is this what normal feels like?

i always feel at least a little bit weird in groups unless i have some sort of friendship with everyone there individually

time goes weird when you're in the shower

i'm fairly sure this medicine is working as i tend to be in a much better mood overall, things that would have caused me some amount of distress a month ago feel minor, and in general stress levels are a lot lower. it's pretty rad.

where can i get amanatto

earphones coming in the mail!!! :D (to chelsea's house, but y'know.)

to think i was seriously considering maths teacher for a while

despite all the work i have to do and all the lectures i have to catch up on, i feel in a really good mood these past few days.

do i sleep or go get a snack

OH MY GOD I'M (kinda) FREE

FREE FROM TWO it may have been less LONG PAINFUL WEEKS OF MATHS AND REFERENCING AND THAT RANDOM ENG SUBJECT I ALSO DO

FREE FROM IMMEDIATELY DUE ASSESSMENTS

FREE

FREE

FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

our second maths assignment is already up what is this WHAT IS THIS

so i don't think there have been any side effects, except for it knocking me out after 30 mins (which tbh i could totally get behind)

i did start feeling incredibly anxious over maths but that's not out of the ordinary, i've just gotten better at noticing it.

i won't lie, i'm looking forward to seeing how it affects me

i can't remember anything of the past week except for maths

it is decided, 9pm is lexapro time

also whoa i just got hit with a sudden wave of tiredness out of nowhere?

constant vacillation between OMG I CAN STILL DO MATHS and I HATE MATHS I CANT DO THIS

sometimes i get incredibly frustrated at all the things i could be doing if i wasn't so this

you know, just the post rate on this blog is a pretty interesting indicator of my mental/emotional state

I HAVE COLOURED JEANS

took me 40 minutes but cleaned out my entire school inbox

i need coloured jeans

so i've been diagnosed with depression and will be starting on antidepressants soonish

just fyi

yeah

i don't understand muesli????

fuckingggg vectorsssssss

MY INTERNET CONNECTION IS WORKING AGAIN I FEEL LIKE SUCH A PRO

literally all i did was install a usb adaptor and uninstall norton tho. shhh

I'M LAUGHING

so we have a group for chem students in our subject right, and last night i made this post:

if you're struggling with functional groups then have this flash matching game! good for the ridiculously competitive, try and unseat that douchebag ChemNewbie from their high score, and learn on the way to domination, or something
n.b. it includes all the groups in our course except alkyl halides, sooo make sure you learn that :)

and i just checked back and saw this

so proud.

can time pause while i catch up pls and thank

CHRIS THOMPSON LIKED MY FACEBOOK POST

I CAN DIE HAPPY

http://classragespeaks.tumblr.com/post/5220506645/nine-things-i-wish-economically-privileged-people-in-my

and


http://classragespeaks.tumblr.com/post/5260045515/nine-ways-to-be-a-good-friend-in-the-face-of-economic


are v important

singing mulan songs as loud as you can is the ultimate cure for the sads

glares at allocate+

too many intelligent attractive people at uni what to do

i am SO engaged in chem this semester you don't even know

let me learn more about chirality and isomerism and functional groups and other wonderful things

i'm not great at advice or consoling or a lot really

but i'm pretty good at being a totally nonjudgmental listening ear so there's that

we may be moving out

and it all comes crashing down again

protip: never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever read the comments section of any online article

ever

what's it like to be one of those people who can spend $10 on a single meal and not cringe at the cost

constantly exhausted and distressed

not enough hours in the day for this???!?!

I hate walking home after dark

I CAN CHEMISTRY

uni stress and money stress and general i hate my life stress are gonna kill me

constant cycle of having really!! strong!! opinions!! and putting them out there and then feeling instant regret

if someone feels like they were a victim of racisim i don't give a single fuck if it seems trivial or not like "real" racism i'm gonna take their side because really

white people don't need any extra fucking support

t i r e d

remind me never ever ever to scroll further back than 6 months through my facebook profile jesus christ

the science learning centre (ground floor of building 26) now requires you to swipe your student ID card to enter and i'm not gonna lie it totally feels like i've joined an exclusive secret society

skype calls are the funnest

the whole chemistry course is so neat and organised with consistent labeling and clear topic divisions and a fully organised workflow and it makes me so happy

like you cannot reasonably forget to do something when this is the first thing you see on the page

i needa get me some sunglasses

really good afternoon out in the city

i have wonderful friends should defs do this more often

how can i be ready to go back to uni when i consistently drop out of existence every other day

classism

timetable

consciously or not i think i do hold this unshakable belief, deep down, that things will eventually work out, and i can say with some certainty that the moments when i stop believing that are out of character for me.

so lonely

oh oh also i'm crocheting myself a scarf and it's going really well, i'll post a picture of the finished project when it's done (probs before the end of next week)

groannnn all my blogs are so ranty these days it's really annoying

my ideal holiday would be out of the house every day and never having to speak to her

alternatively i'll take staying in my room all day and never having to speak to her

do you ever meet someone and think GAH I WANT TO BE YOUR FRIEND and start stalking them from a distance and devising a scheme to quietly integrate yourself into their life

pon pon way way way
pon pon way pon way pon pon
way way pon pon pon
way way pon way pon way way

also elementary is a really really great show that is so much better than the racist sexist queerbaiting bbc sherlock i used to love (and now i only care about bc of andrew scott and his moriarty sighs)

anyway yes elementary

its cast is not 99% white and it has an amazing female lead character

it has lucy liu

like what else do you need

NO BUT CAN MOCKINGJAY COME OUT ALREADY

p.s. laik is fictional. jsyk.

so i'm doing camp nano atm, which is a lot like nanowrimo (which for anyone who doesn't know, i've been doing every year since year 9) but tbh i'm missing a lot of the motivation that i normally get for the actual nanowrimo (in november)

i have like, 3000 words OTL i'll try and get at least 10k done this month.

sugary pop music is my weakness

i'm cambodian by blood sure but i'm so completely divorced from the culture that it feels like there's no link, there's no connection, i'm not actually cambodian, and if i went there i'd just be like a white tourist, clueless and ignorant, but it'd be worse because there'd be people speaking to me in khmer and it'd be so painfully obvious that while i look like them i'm not one of them

and it's also obvious that i'm not white either, i don't feel australian, i don't fit in either culture and it sucks because it feels like i don't really belong anywhere

when i remember them my dreams have been filled with hostility, anxiety or just general unpleasantness for like several weeks straight.

there's so many things i want to do

the fact that the nuclear family is the ideal family structure for our society really bugs me for many reasons

but i think one of the main ones is that i trust very few people to be parents at all and i genuinely think most people probably shouldn't have kids

especially when having kids is often such a selfish decision

cleaning my room makes me really angry

WHAT THE FUCK DUST WHY ARE YOU HERE THIS IS MY ROOM NOT YOURS GET THE FUCK OUT YOU WERENT INVITED YOU DONT PAY RENT LEAVE NOW HOW DARE YOU

etc

passed all my subjects!!!!!!! :DDDD

such relief, not cos i'm that fussed about repeating or a longer degree but cos of the wasted money if i didn't pass

results:
politics 65 credit
chem 79 distinction (so close to a HD!! so close!!!!)
maths 63 credit
physics 57 pass (legit relief)

teaching myself to crochet! you can really see me get less shitty.

learning to crochet is tricky but fun!!

i just watched tangled and i can't stop crying

I'M FREEEEEEEEEEE

ALSO I WATCHED CAPTAIN AMERICA 2 THE OTHER NIGHT AND IM STILL CRYING AGHHHHHHH YOU DONT UNDERSTAND HOW INVESTED I AM IN THEM

this is probably my fave stage of hair, "messy but not MESSY," though it probably looks better in person.

alt title: selfies (with captions!)

the face of a soulless uni student

parrot 

holds breath for no reason like dixon

quack

:l

there's a feral koala in the background can you see it

creeper koala, also hufflepuff pride #swog

believe it or not i have been practicing my smirk and this is the most successful of about 50 attempts. the key is to imagine someone yelling 'you're an asshole!' at you in exasperation and channel all the smug you then feel. what the fuck am i on about

trying to study after 9 is impossible for me i read the same sentence over and over and don't take any of it in

maybe i should study first thing instead?

FREE DATA ALL WEEKEND WHAT THE FRICK I HAD NO IDEA DAMNIT GOTTA START TORRENTING

chem didn't go too bad! thermodynamics is awdue but everything else was largely manageable

3 hours wasn't too bad?

politics yesterday wasn't bad either, tho my essay was too short and embarasses me

EXAMS HALF DONEEEEE

first exam tomorrow

politics, and i'm freaking out over the exam venue rather than the exam itself

introduced my mum to the magical world of photo filters

all you people who tell me it's going to be okay

i don't believe you.

all you people who tell me it's going to be okay

i don't believe you.

i really wanna go to sydney damnit

don't mind me i'm just sitting here stressing over everything

don't mind me i'm just sitting here stressing over everything

i feel most guilty admitting i havent studied to my friends tbh

it's so weird that there's a bunch of people who i don't talk to yet they'd know me better than most of my uni friends, having been stuck with me constantly for 6 years (and having seen some of the more unpleasant parts of my personality)

pinch punch!!

66% FOR MY POLITICS ESSAY IM DYING OF RELIEF

i'm very confused like i put all this effort into backing up everything on my device so i could totally clear the 2GB full internal storage

then clearing it has freed up all this space but nothing is missing?

confused but not complaining

just come home and realised all i've had today was a packet of uncooked instant noodles and some banana chips

the people who can see past their privilege and realise how their behavior might have been influenced by it are great

i'm fucking tired and fucking stressed and i fucking hate centrelink and i hate my old work and i hate uni and i hate my life and i hate everything

it really grates how there are so many people out there - some of whom i'm friends with - who have no fucking clue how privliged they are and how fucking easy they have it and every word they say is like shut the fuck up try having some real problems

white middle-class nuclear families are so surreal

if we make friends and become facebook friends there is 100% chance that i've facebook stalked you

my ability to socialise has definitely improved but the area i'm still lacking in is talking about myself? especially around people who are intellectual.

but yeah. talking about myself - especially face to face - is hard.

no but i defs subscribe to the school of "if it's late and this assessment/task/whatever is causing you so much stress that everything hurts and you want to cry then drop it and get a good night's sleep instead" 

ALSO I GOT 24/25 FOR TODAY'S CHEM PRESENTATION HOW DID THIS HAPPEN???!

if i try to do work at night the headache kicks in at 10.30 without fail

just won this for best chem group presentation!! voted on by everyone in the claas, so it feels great :'D

i dislike reminders that i'm still socially awkward

hey satan

i'll sell my soul for an understanding of thermodynamics, kinetics and newtonian mechanics

text me and we'll work something out

was thinking it was odd that i hadnt gotten any snaps recently from anyone, but realised that my phone signed me out 3 days ago.

was thinking it was odd that i hadnt gotten any snaps recently from anyone, but realised that my phone signed me out 3 days ago.

i cannot wAIT FOR ACTUALLY INTERESTING SECOND YEAR SUBJECTS INSTEAD OF ALL THIS DRY THEORY 

harry james potter is a wonderful person do not insult him around me i will fight you over this

don't even ask me how many lectures i've skipped

when you're stalking someone's fb all  "don't accidentally click like don't accidentally click like"

boo no wifi signal in rotunda boo

this guy in my tute fainted while presenting and oh my god it was the scariest fucking thing i've ever seen holy shit

he's alright now but oh my god that was scary

it's so easy to shut people out

help i have chem and politics exams in 2 weeks and idk anything about either

FARAH TOOK ME TO JOHN MEDLEY LIB THE OTHER DAY I KNOW WHERE I'LL BE SPENDING MY TIME NOW

OH HEY WAIT

We will be counting  completion of the task towards your tutorial attendence (as against grading the task ).

LOLOL I HOPE THIS IS TRUE 

when you literally put negative effort into a task cos you think it's just for participation

then after it's submitted you're informed that it's graded

and you probs should've done more than 6-word answers

WELP

"In a significant change, the government is likely to force unemployed 22-year-olds to stay on the lower paying Youth Allowance. Another expected policy will be forcing school leavers to wait six months after graduating before applying for Youth Allowance."

HOLY FUCKING SHIT FUCK YOU, FUCK THIS I WOULD HAVE ALREADY FUCKING KILLED MYSELF RIGHT NOW IF THIS HAD HAPPENED ALREADY, FUCK THIS BULLSHIT

found while emptying out my pockets

it's not about being "politically correct" it's about the fact that the shit you say can really fucking hurt people and if you were a decent human being that ought to be an issue

WOW MY BROWSER IS 10X FASTER REMIND ME TO ACTUALLY UPDATE WHEN THEY SAY TO UPDATE

this is my "i actually tried taking this photo ten times with livelier facial expressions but they all looked dumb so have this" face

IT'S 11.45AM ABD I JUST SUBMITTED MY FUCKING POLITICS ESSAY THAT WAS DUE THURSDAY AND IM.SO FUCKIMG DONE IDC ANYMORE JUST LETBME PASS IM JUST GLAD I FINALLY SUBMITTED OH MY GOD

so finnish boys are ruining my life

http://m.xojane.com/family/to-the-motherless-for-whatever-reason-as-we-approach-mothers-day

somewhere along the line my mother incorporated control into her definition of love

somewhere along the line my mother incorporated control into her definition of love

today i ate a whole packet of oreos. today was a good day.

mentally punches those annoying shits who come to lectures to talk the whole time and make it impossible for anyone to hear a damn thing

not sure if overconfident in my abilities or apathetic to the outcome of my essay

i feel like i haven't done any work for 12 months

- wolf gang album just out
- coldplay album may 19
- linkin park album june 17
- marina and the diamonds album sometime

WHAT A TIME TO BE ALIVE

getting real tired of being too distressed to work

so i just spent 36 minutes on a second attempt of an online chem test

we get 3 attempts and i got 9/10 the first time so i redid

...

i may be a bit too invested?

i'm still on holiday and yet i'm already thinking about skipping classes

do you ever stalk someone's Facebook and want to punch yourself in the face because they're so great but you're not really friends and you don't talk

what the fuck have i been doing the past 3 days

even i don't know

help my break's almost over and I've accomplished nothing

Caesar: You know Brutus, everyone has been complaining about my French. I think they want to kill me because of it.
Brutus: I agree Caesar, your French isn't very good.
Caesar: BRUTUS :O ET TU?
Brutus: ...Non, Caesar. ET TOI! /stabs

- Joy Chen, Parody of Julius Caesar

found out just yesterday that I'm 1/4 Vietnamese

the more you know

2000% PUMPED FOR EUROVISION

i think i save all my thinking for showers or doing the dishes

dont listen to people who say you cant eat ice cream in winter

vaguely considering starting an etsy store?

i had to screenshot my own snapchat from my story because i forgot to save the pic

self control is a thing that i lack

one day i will just casually turn up to uni with purple hair and it will be awesome

MID SEMESTER BREAK HAS COME AT LAST and i am already certain it's not gonna be long enough

PHONE PLEASE STOP RANDOMLY UNDERLINING THE LAST WORD

YOOOOO 73.3%

11 OUT OF 15

IN PHYSICS!!!

ladytron is great

i feel like life just keeps punching me in the  face and i am just so done with everything

accidentally skipped 2 lectures

on the subject of milk, mum and i went to Coles the other night and they were out of milk?? apparently someone had bought 200 cartons the previous day

what

i actually can't stand milk that isn't long-life milk in boxes

this maths assignment has killed me

it amuses me how teenagers aren't even the ones who use text talk because we've fused with our phones to reach a typing speed high enough for normal spelling and grammar

my thoughts really scare me sometimes

sparkly nails in low quality

I GOT PURPLE HAIR CHALK I CAN'T WAIT TO USE IT

hi michelle

i try and publish a heap of short posts at a time to make it look like i'm actually blogging

damn i gotta start that maths project that's due tomorrow

parties that are gatherings are gooooood

it's so easy to go days without bloggging whoops

labs are so painful

I HAVE TO SEE CAPTAIN AMERICA 2 I JUST HAVE TO YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND I HAVE TO

why is everyone busy

where is everyone

keeping up a perfect average is so stressful

solid effort

so every fortnight it seems we have this online Mastering Physics assignment, basically 15 pages pf online questions

they're worth about 1.75% of the grade each

atm i'm just going thru clicking gice up and random mult choice answers

come annoy me at qooh.me/eleventies

pretzels look like peace signs

pretzels for world peace

i can't believe i missed onerepublic in melbourne i had no idea

i had my last KFC shift on thursday - gotta say, had pretty mixed feeling starting the shift, because the whole process was so familiar, you know? come to work, get changed, and just do your job. it's nice to just be able to do stuff without having to ask, to just totally know what you're doing.

but then, familiarity isn't the same as liking it, and it doesn't outweigh the fact that it's over an hour's commute for minimal pay to do a stressful lunch-hour shift and deal with shitty customers.

i got into a routine in the summer holidays, for nearly two months i was just working like 4 or 5 days a week, and it was great, i had nothing better to do with my time and it was good to have somewhere to be...but then uni started, and i had like over 2 weeks without a single shift, and then i had to come to work once a week on my day off, and it was just annoying because hey, a whole day wasted for a 3-hour shift.

i realised it didn't fit in my life anymore, nowhere near a priority, just really annoying. i can see why people get summer jobs now, that's basically all it was.

no regrets leaving.

chm1011 is one of my most visited pages huh

ive gotten into this awful attitude towards physics tho i fall more and more behind every day

physics test on friday hahahahahahahahaha

a girl just told me how she sees me all the time in like purple, purple lipstick and stockings and stuff, and how it looks awesome and she wishes she had the guts for that

it was awesome dang i feel famous now

call it maaaaagiiiiiiic

call it truuuue

pol test today: what are the four characteristics of liberalism?

well the only one i remember is liberalism

damn this app and its random underlining

i was meant to study for my politics test but i got distracted for three hours reading feminist tumblrs and i am totally ok with that

my chem lecturer the past 4 weeks is the best lecturer i've ever had (oh yes because i've had so many) and like i am doing so well in chem and enjoying it and considering it as a major and agh i wish he could take every chem lecture cos he's awesome

sadly we have two different lecturers the next 8 weeks, i hope i don't start hating chem again

my electice subject this semester is intro to politics (for international relations) and i do care about doing well in it cos i'm considering an IR major in addition to my science major

90% of my favourite characters are evil, insane, dead, or some combination thereof

super pumped for captain america 2

chris and gwyneth are the only celebrity separation i've ever followed and they're doing it so well

i love havong a clean room but i hate cleaning

it took 5 hours of today for mum and i to clear up the 6 years of accumulated junk from my room

i should start beading again

too much to do

ree if ur reading this iT WAS OUR FAMILY FRIEND MY MUM WAS THERE DONT LOOK AT ME LIKE THAT

bleh merlot

we got new handwash and now my hands smell like turkish delight

whenever i get really low i always wonder if i might have depression or anxiety or both

but then i just tell myself that my issues arent serious enough for it and i'm just being self-pitying and melodramatic

so i just quit my jobbbbb

some monash stalkerspace posts are great but others make me feel really sick at how shitty people are

I am useless and a failure and I will never be anything more than a useless failure

everything blurs together and there's never enough time

wow okay apparently my phone randomly underlines words in my blog posts?? pls ignore thank

so i got 61.5% on my online physics assignment ok i can live with that at least i got it done after 6 hours of procrastination

now for the actual fun stuff BY WHICH I MEAN CHEMISTRY HECK YES

too upset to work

get more upset about not working

i dont cope well with not understanding things i have to either get it straight away or im stupid

i feel too blah to do physics but too guilty to do anything else so im just sitting here

no adding 'literally' to that post

physics will be the death of me

i go straight from apathy to distress it's like eustress isnt even an option

i meant to make a post on monday saying 'not gonna lie if i don't ace this assignment i will be quite displeased'

24 OUT OF 25 WHAT UP

(shit where'd i lose the mark tho)

how i dress to uni
- coloured tights
- shorts
- purple lipstick
- some sort of top

also straightened hair cos farah wanted to see me with straightened hair

ok im gonna be late for maths

i am still a dumb child unable to control her emotions

physics hurts my brain

looling?

i keep asking myself why i even care about my study scores anymore cos it's OVER but idk i guess i really do value academic achievement and i could have done so much better

explaining accounting terminology to a friend who's starting it this year

it makes me miss accounting cos i really did enjoy the subject, especially early on. I WAS SO GOOD AT IT WHAT HAPPENED oh yeah theory questions happened

but yeah i feel both useful and slightly like a sham helping out

if i got a qooh.me would i even get any questions

telling people you like them is terrifying but exhilarating at the same time

finished my first maths assignment! it was very enjoyable. srsly. it's been a while since i've enjoyed maths, so this was a lot of fun.

hillary stop hissing at me

no but idk what work is doing

there are like 5 of us uni students and we have days free but still mostly get 3 hours a week

WHEW ok lets recap cos ive been barely blogging on here

so this week was spent in coloured stockings and purple lipstick and that part was great yepyep. i got complimented on my green stockings on tuesday which was very noce. also purple lipstick makes me feel badass

spent all of yesterday at work and two of our trainee managers had their assessment DR thingo yesterday!! so we all had to be on our best behaviour etc. i spent a lot of time cleaning which i complained about while i did it but hey it's not dealing with customers.

omg. my till was A SINGLE DOLLAR DOWN WHY. deletions were good too like 3 percent. aw yeah im pretty proud.

one of the managers is gonna go work at the new swanston st kfc, while the other is staying. she is super nice i am glad the ratio of cool managers at work is rising.

ALSO I TURNED 17 WHICH MEANS 2 DOLLAR PAYRISE. YEAHH

and today was a good day! i like days with both maths and chem, cos i love maths and love my chem lecturer. also i went and sorted out my moving out of socio and into physics, which was really quite easy. UNI. THE FLEXIBILITY!!

so now to spend the weekend doing all my uni work. i'm looling forward to it.

i think i can feel myself slipping again

I never mentioned that I jad the best birthday ever

Well

I HAD THE BEST BIRTHDAY EVER

perf friends

wow it's so easy to miss days of posting ok I think it's time for a life update

well I just survived my first week of uni! it's... it doesn't feel too different? idk maybe I've gotten used to lectures quickly.

atm I'm liking my science subjects more than my arts ones cos ARTS SUBJECTS ARE SCARY. like gah the assessment makes me nervous. science subjects are straightforward there's always gonna be one right answer and I like that.

made friends hooray :D

haven't worked for a while and starting to be meh about it....

AND I'M 17 TOMORROW AHHHH

im gonna cry how did i get such good friends

YES YOU CAN IT TASTES GREAT

can you add vanilla and cinnamon to hot chocolate

how does one make hot chocolate

i enjoy listening to hillary and jesse talk cos i can feel my IQ rising

UNI IS GREAT

MAY 19 THIS IS SO SUDDEN I AM NOT PREPARED FOR THIS

NEW COLDPLAY ALBUM

NEW COLDPLAY ALBUM

NEW COLDPLAY ALBUM

NEW COLDPLAY ALBUM

 

NEW COLDPLAY ALBUM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my phone does this really cool thing where at the start of every song it glows the main colour of the album art iT'S JUST SO COOL

wow really getting into ladytron wow what a great band

ok now im getting hella nervous about uni coursework

esp the essays for the arts half of my course

open ended assessments make me so nervous ahhh

shoutout to my friend who dreamt Hermione turned into a giant chicken nugget

solidarity for KFC workers around Australia

being at an underrepresented school bumped my 83.25 up to approximately 87.25 and the clearly in for my course was 87.15 so i'll never know if the rest of my seas app counted for anything

NEW PHONE AW YEAH

(obligatory bathroom selfie)

(it's an Xperia E which is kind of mid range but SUCH an upgrade)

i wish i had the time and energy to be there for everyone all the time, i really do

i've noticed that when things get really bad people often finish with 'i'm just so tired'

because that's how it feels when things get really bad. it's not just feeling sleepy from a long day. it's a bone-deep exhaustion of life and of existence that overtakes your entire being. it's not caring if you don't get to be happy ever again as long as you don't have to feel sad or angry or anything at all anymore. it's feeling like you're stuck in the same spot forever as everything catches up to you and the walls close in and the ground opens up.

and it's really tiring.

i don't know if you like me or if you're just a really friendly person and it's ruining my lifeeeeeeeeeeeeee

spending o-week feeling quite disoriented

i think i just need time to adjust and no amount of tours or free stuff can change that

to all my work friends

why do we all live an hour away from work

when i tell people kfc waterfront city docklands the reaction is invariably WHOA THAT'S PRETTY FAR

WHY DO WE DO THIS TO OURSELVES

also dafuq is this i hear about nachos

my facebook likes will never be an up-to-date representation of my tastes sigh

i try not to vagueblog cos i know that shit is annoying but GAH


GAH


GAH

sipahh straws are the most ridiculous impractical overpriced things... but they're so much fun

so i don't generally blog about makeup or perfume or whatever because WHAT DO I KNOW I JUST LIKE THINGS THAT LOOK NICE but i think today's purchase warrants a post...

wow what a terrible photo

but anyway, this is Watermelon Lollipop by Demeter Fragrance Library, a brand that caught my attention a while ago when i was looking for watermelon perfume.

DemeterFL, Inc. is a Great Neck, New York company that sells fragrances based on familiar, "everyday" scents, such as dirt, tomatoes, and chocolate chip cookies. The fragrances are intended to be an evocative, "idealized" representation of these scents, which Demeter calls "single experience fragrances"

maybe it's just me but that whole concept sounded rad as heck, and so for the past month i've been meaning to go to Kleins Perfumery in Fitzroy (to my knowledge the only place i can get it; ebay was an option but i wanted to smell them first)

it was only today i got my chance; dragged Mish along with me, and eventually located the store. oh man, they weren't kidding about everyday scents.

the small amount of testers the store had (maybe 15?) included thunderstorm, ocean, pure soap, rain and brownies. Demeter perfumes are supposedly not very lasting but they lasted a fair while; my right hand smells like marshmallows, my arm smells like dirt and my left arm smells like wet grass. the scents are so realistic it's actually kind of annoying because i spent two hours smelling like a garden.

anyway, i eventually got the one i came for, Watermellon Lollipop which in my opinion smells delicious, absolutely juicy and fresh watermelon. more like watermelon candy or watermelon chewing gum maybe? i'm very happy with it, though it's a little sugary so i might not wear it too often. $29.95; i can't comment on the price because idk how prices for things work? i do know that i don't like spending more than $20 at a time hah.

but yes. i will enjoy walking around smelling like watermelon.

RAD AS HECK DAY IN THE CITY WITH MICHELLET

spent 2 hours exploring the whole of Melbourne Uni Parkville FRICK WHY IS IT SO BIG

then had sushi for lunch

then went hunting for this shop i've been meaning to go to and nearly got lost down the wrong street except Mish has an actual sense of direction. thank u for ur epic navigation skills bro i am so glad you were there. i wouldn't want to be lost alone in St Kilda.

then got bubble tea and headed home. so much walking but what an awesome day :'D

HELGA NACHO February 22, 2014 at 9:41 AM

i feel sad because if customers are nice to me at coles there's nothing i can do :'( except smile more or something?? idk

can you give extra plastic bags??? or an information brochure folded into a tiny sailor's hat???

CarrotCrap February 22, 2014 at 12:09 PM

DEFS ATTACKING YOUR KFC.

harbour town waterfront city ;) don't tell my boss.

i'll stop kfc blogging when i remember how to have a life ok

I CAN CONFIRM THAT IT'S NOT JUST ME

ONE KFC FRIEND TOLD ME THAT SHE MAKES SURE TO GIVE MORE POPCORN CHICKEN AND BIGGER WICKED WINGS

ANOTHER FRIEND ONCE UPSIZED EVERYTHING COS THE CUSTOMER WAS WAITING AGES

BE NICE TO US YOU'LL GET MORE FOOD*

(*not officially endorsed by kfc)

reason #1989597 to be nice to service staff

i know if someone seems nice i'll do things like stuff extra chips into the box or put extra cookie crumbs into their krusher

if i seem really angry about shitty kfc customers iT'S BECAUSE I AM

IT'S SO FUCKING EASY TO BE A NICE PERSON WHY DON'T PEOPLE DO IT

sorry in advance to anyone who has to work with me today...or this week really

forever raging about the incompetence of centrelink

you ever feel like dropping out of existence for a while

not permanently

just a week or so without any obligations to do anything

also i don't care how acceptable it is if you don't bin your food i will resent you

ugh people are so disgusting though don't leave your chewed up bones on the tray ugh

hhh work has taken over my life

if i'm not at work i'm asleep

or blogging about work

i'm looking forward to working a lot less after this week

today i got up at 6.30, worked 9-5, left my purse on the tram (and got it back within the hour, bless people who hand things in!! bless yarra trams and all their lovely people!!) and got home at 7.30.

it feels weird like this part time job takes up so much time?? but i'm working a lot now because once uni starts i won't be working nearly as much.

really long shifts are really satisfying though. looking forward to this week's pay.

just a second ago i found out someone i know is 16 and i caught myself thinking 'huh, so young.'


then i was like 'oh. right. shit.'

mum poking at my stomach and constantly calling me fat is getting really fucking annoying

i should just give up on having a social life

i should just give up on seeing friends

i should just give up on existence outside school and work

constantly internalising toxic shit

CENTRELINK WHY ARE YOU SO STUPID

cancelling my youth allowance because i apparently didn't provide the ID when i FREAKING DID 2 WEEKS AGO

arghhhh

chillest few hours with allie today so awesome

you will never convince me that i don't have the best friends in the world

purple and yellow is such a great colour combination

i think i waste every day i have off wow hillary was right about scheduling things

i dropped my purple eyeshadow now i'm sad

i hate how angry i get sometimes. when i get angry i don't feel kind of mad, i feel all-consuming rage, and that is so exhausting

i don't think i'm very good at it but harmonising is really fun

still don't know why hot and cold is the masterchef theme song

work was only busy for about an hour today so it was pretty chill, 12-5

would've been better if tina and her good music were there :(

how do people do bad things

like how do you find it in yourself to take away a life

how can you do it

OKAY THE PLAN FOR TOMORROW IS GO EARLY TO WORK AND HUNT DOWN WATERMELON PERFUME

hella rad day

met up with Chelsea at the Glen and got watermelon w/ fruit jelly bubble tea and then dumplings and noodles and then wandered through a bookshop and got an amazing chocolate souffle from Max Brenner's with strawberries and cream and wandered around JB HI-FI and got Coldplay's Parachutes for just 9.99 and chilled and chatted and yay awesome friends see i do have a social life

and got mango milk tea which was also delicious except maybe one bubble tea is enough for one day because i'm still full and haven't had anything to eat since

BUT YES AWESOME DAY THANK YOU CHELSEA WHENEVER YOU READ THIS

need to get myself some watermelon perfume

it's weird how in the time you choose then complete a major you can become a totally different person with totally different interests

that's what worries me about uni subjects. 3 years ago i didn't even know i liked history, turns out i really do.

but like, i'm still 16. am i going to be the same person i am now at 20? quite obviously not.

am i going to care about what i'm doing now?

i just hate the thought of wasting the time and effort. but i guess i can't really do anything about the future. i can just do what i want at this present moment really.

#4amramblings

TMI

TMI

TOO MUCH INFORMATION!

as far as quizzes go this isnt very tmi 

1. What are you wearing?

Hitsu t-shirt, grey shorts

2. Ever been in love? 

nah

3. Ever had a terrible breakup?

i've never had one?

4. How tall are you? 

160cm?

5. How much do you weigh?

59-61 kg

6. Any tattoos?

nope, but i'm seriously considering one. idk i have a year to talk myself out of it anyway

7. Any piercings? 

ears...i wear earrings so rarely i won't be surprised if they close up

8. OTP?

WHAT JUST ONE never

9. Favorite Show?

Hhhhh idk. Sherlock? Supernatural? can you see how much tumblr influences my tv choices

10. Favorite bands?

Coldplay, Linkin Park, OneRepublic are my default faves

11. Something you miss? 

not having to put effort into my work

at the same time, putting effort into work is really satisfying

12. Favorite song? 

NOPE

13. How old are you? 

17 wow

14. Zodiac sign? 

pisces

15. Quality you look for in a partner? 

intelligence, a sense of humour, caring and understanding and generally a cool person idk. i don't go looking for things. i just like the person and they probs fit.

16. Favorite Quote? 

i used to be big on 'the most wasted of all days is one without laughter.'

17. Favorite actor?

possibly Johnny Depp. idek if i spelt his name right

18. Favorite color? 

purple yo

19. Loud music or soft?

moderate. i can never feel comfortable around loud music

20. Where do you go when you’re sad?

i don't go places

21. How long does it take you to shower? 

20 mins to half an hour tbh. long thick hair's a pain to wash

22. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?

idk on average 40 mins

23. Ever been in a physical fight?

nope

24. Turn on?

rolled up sleeves

25. Turn off? 

general dickishness

26. The reason I joined Blogger?

i like writing and i like peole reading my writing. idk human need to be heard?

27. Fears? 

heights, wild mushrooms

28. Last thing that made you cry? 

i think i was listening to a sad song

29. Last time you said you loved someone?

today to my mum

30. Meaning behind your Blogger URL?

ergh ide remember anymore

31. Last book you read? 

probably allegiant by veronica roth, last in the divergent trilogy. I wouldnt recommend the books tbh

32. The book you’re currently reading? 

my politics reader

33. Last show you watched?

.......the australian open? MKR?

34. Last person you talked to?

my mum

35. The relationship between you and the person you last texted?

some stranger im buying my textbook off

36. Favorite food?

chocolate, sushi

37. Place you want to visit? 

Ireland, Canada...atm especially Sydney hah

38. Last place you were?

uni

39. Do you have a crush?

not atm

40. Last time you kissed someone? 

on the cheek? yesterday?

41. Last time you were insulted? 

no idea

42. Favourite flavour of sweet? 

chocolate, choc mint, caramel

43. What instruments do you play?

keyboard...and next to no guitar

44. Favourite piece of jewellery?

probs my pink ring abi/'s mum got me

45. Last sport you played?

...

46. Last song you sang?

feel good inc - gorillaz

47. Favourite chat up line?

omfg ree i can't say it here

48. Have you ever used it?

I DONT THINK 'CAN I HAVE DIRECTIONS TO YO ASS' WOULD GO DOWN V WELL

49. Last time you hung out with anyone?

define hung out? Friday?

50. Who should answer these questions next?

you