back at centrelink to sort out my health care card and i can't say i've missed this at all

caring about animal welfare is all well and good but i will never understand people who care more about animal rights than about the civil rights issues of actual human beings.

so i just scolded myself out of hiccups using riley's strategy of "just realising that it's pointless"

THIS IS TOO MUCH POWER FOR ONE PERSON

i have a cat on my leg this is the best thing ever

I hate how I only come onto this blog when I have negativity to post

getting this semester's result has really shown me how far my standards have dropped and it sickens me

i used to be so good at school, all the effort i put into everything and the constant hd's i took for granted

and now i'm sitting on a credit average and i'm realising that the whole identity of 'smart' was only in comparison

i used to devine myself by my smartness and kindness and now i'm around so many smart people that the former doesnt matter, and the lattr, well. i'd hardly call myself a kind person anymore.

just. i feel like i'm falling behind. and i know i should be inspired by all the intelligence but i just feel inferior, like i'll never measure up. i'll never again reach the standards i used to have. i feel behind and i feel like i'll only get further behind and then i'll just be nowhere.