shoutout to my friend who dreamt Hermione turned into a giant chicken nugget

solidarity for KFC workers around Australia

being at an underrepresented school bumped my 83.25 up to approximately 87.25 and the clearly in for my course was 87.15 so i'll never know if the rest of my seas app counted for anything

NEW PHONE AW YEAH

(obligatory bathroom selfie)

(it's an Xperia E which is kind of mid range but SUCH an upgrade)

i wish i had the time and energy to be there for everyone all the time, i really do

i've noticed that when things get really bad people often finish with 'i'm just so tired'

because that's how it feels when things get really bad. it's not just feeling sleepy from a long day. it's a bone-deep exhaustion of life and of existence that overtakes your entire being. it's not caring if you don't get to be happy ever again as long as you don't have to feel sad or angry or anything at all anymore. it's feeling like you're stuck in the same spot forever as everything catches up to you and the walls close in and the ground opens up.

and it's really tiring.

i don't know if you like me or if you're just a really friendly person and it's ruining my lifeeeeeeeeeeeeee

spending o-week feeling quite disoriented

i think i just need time to adjust and no amount of tours or free stuff can change that

to all my work friends

why do we all live an hour away from work

when i tell people kfc waterfront city docklands the reaction is invariably WHOA THAT'S PRETTY FAR

WHY DO WE DO THIS TO OURSELVES

also dafuq is this i hear about nachos

my facebook likes will never be an up-to-date representation of my tastes sigh

i try not to vagueblog cos i know that shit is annoying but GAH


GAH


GAH

sipahh straws are the most ridiculous impractical overpriced things... but they're so much fun

so i don't generally blog about makeup or perfume or whatever because WHAT DO I KNOW I JUST LIKE THINGS THAT LOOK NICE but i think today's purchase warrants a post...

wow what a terrible photo

but anyway, this is Watermelon Lollipop by Demeter Fragrance Library, a brand that caught my attention a while ago when i was looking for watermelon perfume.

DemeterFL, Inc. is a Great Neck, New York company that sells fragrances based on familiar, "everyday" scents, such as dirt, tomatoes, and chocolate chip cookies. The fragrances are intended to be an evocative, "idealized" representation of these scents, which Demeter calls "single experience fragrances"

maybe it's just me but that whole concept sounded rad as heck, and so for the past month i've been meaning to go to Kleins Perfumery in Fitzroy (to my knowledge the only place i can get it; ebay was an option but i wanted to smell them first)

it was only today i got my chance; dragged Mish along with me, and eventually located the store. oh man, they weren't kidding about everyday scents.

the small amount of testers the store had (maybe 15?) included thunderstorm, ocean, pure soap, rain and brownies. Demeter perfumes are supposedly not very lasting but they lasted a fair while; my right hand smells like marshmallows, my arm smells like dirt and my left arm smells like wet grass. the scents are so realistic it's actually kind of annoying because i spent two hours smelling like a garden.

anyway, i eventually got the one i came for, Watermellon Lollipop which in my opinion smells delicious, absolutely juicy and fresh watermelon. more like watermelon candy or watermelon chewing gum maybe? i'm very happy with it, though it's a little sugary so i might not wear it too often. $29.95; i can't comment on the price because idk how prices for things work? i do know that i don't like spending more than $20 at a time hah.

but yes. i will enjoy walking around smelling like watermelon.

RAD AS HECK DAY IN THE CITY WITH MICHELLET

spent 2 hours exploring the whole of Melbourne Uni Parkville FRICK WHY IS IT SO BIG

then had sushi for lunch

then went hunting for this shop i've been meaning to go to and nearly got lost down the wrong street except Mish has an actual sense of direction. thank u for ur epic navigation skills bro i am so glad you were there. i wouldn't want to be lost alone in St Kilda.

then got bubble tea and headed home. so much walking but what an awesome day :'D

HELGA NACHO February 22, 2014 at 9:41 AM

i feel sad because if customers are nice to me at coles there's nothing i can do :'( except smile more or something?? idk

can you give extra plastic bags??? or an information brochure folded into a tiny sailor's hat???

CarrotCrap February 22, 2014 at 12:09 PM

DEFS ATTACKING YOUR KFC.

harbour town waterfront city ;) don't tell my boss.

i'll stop kfc blogging when i remember how to have a life ok

I CAN CONFIRM THAT IT'S NOT JUST ME

ONE KFC FRIEND TOLD ME THAT SHE MAKES SURE TO GIVE MORE POPCORN CHICKEN AND BIGGER WICKED WINGS

ANOTHER FRIEND ONCE UPSIZED EVERYTHING COS THE CUSTOMER WAS WAITING AGES

BE NICE TO US YOU'LL GET MORE FOOD*

(*not officially endorsed by kfc)

reason #1989597 to be nice to service staff

i know if someone seems nice i'll do things like stuff extra chips into the box or put extra cookie crumbs into their krusher

if i seem really angry about shitty kfc customers iT'S BECAUSE I AM

IT'S SO FUCKING EASY TO BE A NICE PERSON WHY DON'T PEOPLE DO IT

sorry in advance to anyone who has to work with me today...or this week really

forever raging about the incompetence of centrelink

you ever feel like dropping out of existence for a while

not permanently

just a week or so without any obligations to do anything

also i don't care how acceptable it is if you don't bin your food i will resent you

ugh people are so disgusting though don't leave your chewed up bones on the tray ugh

hhh work has taken over my life

if i'm not at work i'm asleep

or blogging about work

i'm looking forward to working a lot less after this week

today i got up at 6.30, worked 9-5, left my purse on the tram (and got it back within the hour, bless people who hand things in!! bless yarra trams and all their lovely people!!) and got home at 7.30.

it feels weird like this part time job takes up so much time?? but i'm working a lot now because once uni starts i won't be working nearly as much.

really long shifts are really satisfying though. looking forward to this week's pay.

just a second ago i found out someone i know is 16 and i caught myself thinking 'huh, so young.'


then i was like 'oh. right. shit.'

mum poking at my stomach and constantly calling me fat is getting really fucking annoying

i should just give up on having a social life

i should just give up on seeing friends

i should just give up on existence outside school and work

constantly internalising toxic shit

CENTRELINK WHY ARE YOU SO STUPID

cancelling my youth allowance because i apparently didn't provide the ID when i FREAKING DID 2 WEEKS AGO

arghhhh

chillest few hours with allie today so awesome

you will never convince me that i don't have the best friends in the world

purple and yellow is such a great colour combination

i think i waste every day i have off wow hillary was right about scheduling things

i dropped my purple eyeshadow now i'm sad

i hate how angry i get sometimes. when i get angry i don't feel kind of mad, i feel all-consuming rage, and that is so exhausting

i don't think i'm very good at it but harmonising is really fun

still don't know why hot and cold is the masterchef theme song

work was only busy for about an hour today so it was pretty chill, 12-5

would've been better if tina and her good music were there :(

how do people do bad things

like how do you find it in yourself to take away a life

how can you do it

OKAY THE PLAN FOR TOMORROW IS GO EARLY TO WORK AND HUNT DOWN WATERMELON PERFUME

hella rad day

met up with Chelsea at the Glen and got watermelon w/ fruit jelly bubble tea and then dumplings and noodles and then wandered through a bookshop and got an amazing chocolate souffle from Max Brenner's with strawberries and cream and wandered around JB HI-FI and got Coldplay's Parachutes for just 9.99 and chilled and chatted and yay awesome friends see i do have a social life

and got mango milk tea which was also delicious except maybe one bubble tea is enough for one day because i'm still full and haven't had anything to eat since

BUT YES AWESOME DAY THANK YOU CHELSEA WHENEVER YOU READ THIS

need to get myself some watermelon perfume

it's weird how in the time you choose then complete a major you can become a totally different person with totally different interests

that's what worries me about uni subjects. 3 years ago i didn't even know i liked history, turns out i really do.

but like, i'm still 16. am i going to be the same person i am now at 20? quite obviously not.

am i going to care about what i'm doing now?

i just hate the thought of wasting the time and effort. but i guess i can't really do anything about the future. i can just do what i want at this present moment really.

#4amramblings

TMI

TMI

TOO MUCH INFORMATION!

as far as quizzes go this isnt very tmi 

1. What are you wearing?

Hitsu t-shirt, grey shorts

2. Ever been in love? 

nah

3. Ever had a terrible breakup?

i've never had one?

4. How tall are you? 

160cm?

5. How much do you weigh?

59-61 kg

6. Any tattoos?

nope, but i'm seriously considering one. idk i have a year to talk myself out of it anyway

7. Any piercings? 

ears...i wear earrings so rarely i won't be surprised if they close up

8. OTP?

WHAT JUST ONE never

9. Favorite Show?

Hhhhh idk. Sherlock? Supernatural? can you see how much tumblr influences my tv choices

10. Favorite bands?

Coldplay, Linkin Park, OneRepublic are my default faves

11. Something you miss? 

not having to put effort into my work

at the same time, putting effort into work is really satisfying

12. Favorite song? 

NOPE

13. How old are you? 

17 wow

14. Zodiac sign? 

pisces

15. Quality you look for in a partner? 

intelligence, a sense of humour, caring and understanding and generally a cool person idk. i don't go looking for things. i just like the person and they probs fit.

16. Favorite Quote? 

i used to be big on 'the most wasted of all days is one without laughter.'

17. Favorite actor?

possibly Johnny Depp. idek if i spelt his name right

18. Favorite color? 

purple yo

19. Loud music or soft?

moderate. i can never feel comfortable around loud music

20. Where do you go when you’re sad?

i don't go places

21. How long does it take you to shower? 

20 mins to half an hour tbh. long thick hair's a pain to wash

22. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?

idk on average 40 mins

23. Ever been in a physical fight?

nope

24. Turn on?

rolled up sleeves

25. Turn off? 

general dickishness

26. The reason I joined Blogger?

i like writing and i like peole reading my writing. idk human need to be heard?

27. Fears? 

heights, wild mushrooms

28. Last thing that made you cry? 

i think i was listening to a sad song

29. Last time you said you loved someone?

today to my mum

30. Meaning behind your Blogger URL?

ergh ide remember anymore

31. Last book you read? 

probably allegiant by veronica roth, last in the divergent trilogy. I wouldnt recommend the books tbh

32. The book you’re currently reading? 

my politics reader

33. Last show you watched?

.......the australian open? MKR?

34. Last person you talked to?

my mum

35. The relationship between you and the person you last texted?

some stranger im buying my textbook off

36. Favorite food?

chocolate, sushi

37. Place you want to visit? 

Ireland, Canada...atm especially Sydney hah

38. Last place you were?

uni

39. Do you have a crush?

not atm

40. Last time you kissed someone? 

on the cheek? yesterday?

41. Last time you were insulted? 

no idea

42. Favourite flavour of sweet? 

chocolate, choc mint, caramel

43. What instruments do you play?

keyboard...and next to no guitar

44. Favourite piece of jewellery?

probs my pink ring abi/'s mum got me

45. Last sport you played?

...

46. Last song you sang?

feel good inc - gorillaz

47. Favourite chat up line?

omfg ree i can't say it here

48. Have you ever used it?

I DONT THINK 'CAN I HAVE DIRECTIONS TO YO ASS' WOULD GO DOWN V WELL

49. Last time you hung out with anyone?

define hung out? Friday?

50. Who should answer these questions next?

you

hooray for new friends with blogs to stalk!!!

i may have possibly gone through every post

i can't sleep very well these days because as i'm lying in bed my brain just constantly has voices of customers ordering and my manager telling me off and people complaining and it's really distressing when i just want my brain to shut the fuck up and let me sleep goddamnit

i miss group projects with Michelle we seriously made the most perfect team

i think the distinctive desk is possibly my greatest high school achievement

i could have really used a real one though

haha omg i remember it came with a free massage chair

what a great bargain

what a great year 9 project

birthday wishlist

now that my birthday is in a little over a month i feel i can rightfully post this:

• black aviators like these (except idc if they're cheaper)
• opaque coloured tights (blue? green? pink maybe? any is good really.)
• like just-add-water coffee or chai
• homestuck shirt (x, x)
• bleach merch of hitsugaya
• coldplay cds (except parachutes, a rush of blood to the head & mylo xyloto)
• a poster/any sort of merch of any of the many things i like
• JUST MERCH
• cute colourful earrings
• or necklaces
• or bracelets
• purple lipstick that looks legit purple not pink
• rainbow fingerless gloves
• or rainbow scarf
• rainbow anything
• buy me a rainbow
• colour-changing lava lamp
• big huggable stuffed toys are always good
• anything you make me will be great 
• chocolate
• money, the gift card to life

i was just looking through my old blog and cringing at the amount of rants and angsty emoness and general awkwardness of myself just 6 months ago but i did find a quote that i'm still quite proud of today

me: what if we had water buses?
farah: isn't that a boat?

if you ever wonder what the fuck i'm talking about don't worry i'm wondering that too

drinking water is so mainstream

apple juice runs through my veins

until i was 14 i thought that squash was a fruit and tasted like lemon until farah was like NO IT'S LIKE ZUCCHINI YOU COOK IT

life-changing moments

i'm constantly in awe of how irrelevant ATARs are already

holy shit i had the MOST AMAZING iced chocolate this morning

from the chocolate lounge next to Starbucks at southern cross station

really cool cafe with like these chocolates in cool shapes, but pretty expensive, the iced chocolate was like nearly $6

BUT IT WAS SO GOOD