my chem lecturer the past 4 weeks is the best lecturer i've ever had (oh yes because i've had so many) and like i am doing so well in chem and enjoying it and considering it as a major and agh i wish he could take every chem lecture cos he's awesome

sadly we have two different lecturers the next 8 weeks, i hope i don't start hating chem again

my electice subject this semester is intro to politics (for international relations) and i do care about doing well in it cos i'm considering an IR major in addition to my science major

90% of my favourite characters are evil, insane, dead, or some combination thereof

super pumped for captain america 2

chris and gwyneth are the only celebrity separation i've ever followed and they're doing it so well

i love havong a clean room but i hate cleaning

it took 5 hours of today for mum and i to clear up the 6 years of accumulated junk from my room

i should start beading again

too much to do

ree if ur reading this iT WAS OUR FAMILY FRIEND MY MUM WAS THERE DONT LOOK AT ME LIKE THAT

bleh merlot

we got new handwash and now my hands smell like turkish delight

whenever i get really low i always wonder if i might have depression or anxiety or both

but then i just tell myself that my issues arent serious enough for it and i'm just being self-pitying and melodramatic

so i just quit my jobbbbb

some monash stalkerspace posts are great but others make me feel really sick at how shitty people are

I am useless and a failure and I will never be anything more than a useless failure

everything blurs together and there's never enough time

wow okay apparently my phone randomly underlines words in my blog posts?? pls ignore thank

so i got 61.5% on my online physics assignment ok i can live with that at least i got it done after 6 hours of procrastination

now for the actual fun stuff BY WHICH I MEAN CHEMISTRY HECK YES

too upset to work

get more upset about not working

i dont cope well with not understanding things i have to either get it straight away or im stupid

i feel too blah to do physics but too guilty to do anything else so im just sitting here

no adding 'literally' to that post

physics will be the death of me

i go straight from apathy to distress it's like eustress isnt even an option

i meant to make a post on monday saying 'not gonna lie if i don't ace this assignment i will be quite displeased'

24 OUT OF 25 WHAT UP

(shit where'd i lose the mark tho)

how i dress to uni
- coloured tights
- shorts
- purple lipstick
- some sort of top

also straightened hair cos farah wanted to see me with straightened hair

ok im gonna be late for maths

i am still a dumb child unable to control her emotions

physics hurts my brain

looling?

i keep asking myself why i even care about my study scores anymore cos it's OVER but idk i guess i really do value academic achievement and i could have done so much better

explaining accounting terminology to a friend who's starting it this year

it makes me miss accounting cos i really did enjoy the subject, especially early on. I WAS SO GOOD AT IT WHAT HAPPENED oh yeah theory questions happened

but yeah i feel both useful and slightly like a sham helping out

if i got a qooh.me would i even get any questions

telling people you like them is terrifying but exhilarating at the same time

finished my first maths assignment! it was very enjoyable. srsly. it's been a while since i've enjoyed maths, so this was a lot of fun.

hillary stop hissing at me

no but idk what work is doing

there are like 5 of us uni students and we have days free but still mostly get 3 hours a week

WHEW ok lets recap cos ive been barely blogging on here

so this week was spent in coloured stockings and purple lipstick and that part was great yepyep. i got complimented on my green stockings on tuesday which was very noce. also purple lipstick makes me feel badass

spent all of yesterday at work and two of our trainee managers had their assessment DR thingo yesterday!! so we all had to be on our best behaviour etc. i spent a lot of time cleaning which i complained about while i did it but hey it's not dealing with customers.

omg. my till was A SINGLE DOLLAR DOWN WHY. deletions were good too like 3 percent. aw yeah im pretty proud.

one of the managers is gonna go work at the new swanston st kfc, while the other is staying. she is super nice i am glad the ratio of cool managers at work is rising.

ALSO I TURNED 17 WHICH MEANS 2 DOLLAR PAYRISE. YEAHH

and today was a good day! i like days with both maths and chem, cos i love maths and love my chem lecturer. also i went and sorted out my moving out of socio and into physics, which was really quite easy. UNI. THE FLEXIBILITY!!

so now to spend the weekend doing all my uni work. i'm looling forward to it.

i think i can feel myself slipping again

I never mentioned that I jad the best birthday ever

Well

I HAD THE BEST BIRTHDAY EVER

perf friends

wow it's so easy to miss days of posting ok I think it's time for a life update

well I just survived my first week of uni! it's... it doesn't feel too different? idk maybe I've gotten used to lectures quickly.

atm I'm liking my science subjects more than my arts ones cos ARTS SUBJECTS ARE SCARY. like gah the assessment makes me nervous. science subjects are straightforward there's always gonna be one right answer and I like that.

made friends hooray :D

haven't worked for a while and starting to be meh about it....

AND I'M 17 TOMORROW AHHHH

im gonna cry how did i get such good friends

YES YOU CAN IT TASTES GREAT

can you add vanilla and cinnamon to hot chocolate

how does one make hot chocolate

i enjoy listening to hillary and jesse talk cos i can feel my IQ rising

UNI IS GREAT

MAY 19 THIS IS SO SUDDEN I AM NOT PREPARED FOR THIS

NEW COLDPLAY ALBUM

NEW COLDPLAY ALBUM

NEW COLDPLAY ALBUM

NEW COLDPLAY ALBUM

 

NEW COLDPLAY ALBUM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my phone does this really cool thing where at the start of every song it glows the main colour of the album art iT'S JUST SO COOL

wow really getting into ladytron wow what a great band

ok now im getting hella nervous about uni coursework

esp the essays for the arts half of my course

open ended assessments make me so nervous ahhh