i'm cambodian by blood sure but i'm so completely divorced from the culture that it feels like there's no link, there's no connection, i'm not actually cambodian, and if i went there i'd just be like a white tourist, clueless and ignorant, but it'd be worse because there'd be people speaking to me in khmer and it'd be so painfully obvious that while i look like them i'm not one of them

and it's also obvious that i'm not white either, i don't feel australian, i don't fit in either culture and it sucks because it feels like i don't really belong anywhere