constant cycle of having really!! strong!! opinions!! and putting them out there and then feeling instant regret

if someone feels like they were a victim of racisim i don't give a single fuck if it seems trivial or not like "real" racism i'm gonna take their side because really

white people don't need any extra fucking support

t i r e d

remind me never ever ever to scroll further back than 6 months through my facebook profile jesus christ

the science learning centre (ground floor of building 26) now requires you to swipe your student ID card to enter and i'm not gonna lie it totally feels like i've joined an exclusive secret society

skype calls are the funnest

the whole chemistry course is so neat and organised with consistent labeling and clear topic divisions and a fully organised workflow and it makes me so happy

like you cannot reasonably forget to do something when this is the first thing you see on the page

i needa get me some sunglasses

really good afternoon out in the city

i have wonderful friends should defs do this more often

how can i be ready to go back to uni when i consistently drop out of existence every other day

classism

timetable

consciously or not i think i do hold this unshakable belief, deep down, that things will eventually work out, and i can say with some certainty that the moments when i stop believing that are out of character for me.

so lonely

oh oh also i'm crocheting myself a scarf and it's going really well, i'll post a picture of the finished project when it's done (probs before the end of next week)

groannnn all my blogs are so ranty these days it's really annoying

my ideal holiday would be out of the house every day and never having to speak to her

alternatively i'll take staying in my room all day and never having to speak to her

do you ever meet someone and think GAH I WANT TO BE YOUR FRIEND and start stalking them from a distance and devising a scheme to quietly integrate yourself into their life

pon pon way way way
pon pon way pon way pon pon
way way pon pon pon
way way pon way pon way way

also elementary is a really really great show that is so much better than the racist sexist queerbaiting bbc sherlock i used to love (and now i only care about bc of andrew scott and his moriarty sighs)

anyway yes elementary

its cast is not 99% white and it has an amazing female lead character

it has lucy liu

like what else do you need

NO BUT CAN MOCKINGJAY COME OUT ALREADY

p.s. laik is fictional. jsyk.

so i'm doing camp nano atm, which is a lot like nanowrimo (which for anyone who doesn't know, i've been doing every year since year 9) but tbh i'm missing a lot of the motivation that i normally get for the actual nanowrimo (in november)

i have like, 3000 words OTL i'll try and get at least 10k done this month.

sugary pop music is my weakness

i'm cambodian by blood sure but i'm so completely divorced from the culture that it feels like there's no link, there's no connection, i'm not actually cambodian, and if i went there i'd just be like a white tourist, clueless and ignorant, but it'd be worse because there'd be people speaking to me in khmer and it'd be so painfully obvious that while i look like them i'm not one of them

and it's also obvious that i'm not white either, i don't feel australian, i don't fit in either culture and it sucks because it feels like i don't really belong anywhere

when i remember them my dreams have been filled with hostility, anxiety or just general unpleasantness for like several weeks straight.

there's so many things i want to do

the fact that the nuclear family is the ideal family structure for our society really bugs me for many reasons

but i think one of the main ones is that i trust very few people to be parents at all and i genuinely think most people probably shouldn't have kids

especially when having kids is often such a selfish decision

cleaning my room makes me really angry

WHAT THE FUCK DUST WHY ARE YOU HERE THIS IS MY ROOM NOT YOURS GET THE FUCK OUT YOU WERENT INVITED YOU DONT PAY RENT LEAVE NOW HOW DARE YOU

etc

passed all my subjects!!!!!!! :DDDD

such relief, not cos i'm that fussed about repeating or a longer degree but cos of the wasted money if i didn't pass

results:
politics 65 credit
chem 79 distinction (so close to a HD!! so close!!!!)
maths 63 credit
physics 57 pass (legit relief)