i'm looking back through old posts on my blog and what do you know

porque no los dos indeed

getting the diagnosis was actually the hugest relief to be honest; it was like this realisation of 'holy shit there's actually a cause for this and i'm not just being a lazy emo teenager'

it was like validation that there's a reason for what i'm feeling and it's an actual issue that can be dealt with and not just some personality flaw, and that was big.