i started the year feeling super pumped because so much new stuff was happening and there was so much progress

but now it's settled down again and i feel like i'm drifting along, stuck in a rut and just going through the motions, counting down to my next shift, counting down the minutes of my shift, go home, sleep, while away the breaks in between with nothing to show, fill in the hours with online chatting, get nothing done, go to work again...

and i don't see myself doing anything with my time? like okay sure, earning money, that's productive...but i don't feel myself accomplishing anything. i'm so fucking bored