things in my life in general are going well and it confuses me??
like i spent last year in a perpetual state of denial, despair, frustration and apathy interspersed with monthly (was it more frequent? i can't remember) breakdowns so the fact that now we can like pay bills and buy more than $20 worth of groceries and petrol is baffling
but then i may be deluding myself again. relative material stability is one thing but i guess i still have a lot going on.